Hands down the question I get asked the most often is: “Why would you ever do something like that?”
Followed by: “You’re crazy! And god, Sarah must be so insecure to make you do that”.
But two things are for sure:
- I’m not crazy, and
- Sarah didn’t make me do this (this social experiment was self-imposed).
So let me set the record straight on why I purposefully:
- Gained 30 Pounds of Fat
- Gave Up Drinking Alcohol
- Avoided Some of My Favorite Foods
- Stopped Doing Everything Fun Lots of My Hobbies
- Restricted My Sleep
- Peed 17 Times Per Day
- Abstained From Intense Exercise
- Took a Pharmacy’s Worth of Vitamins Every Day
- Took (Unnecessary) Travel Precautions
Wanna go deeper into each rule and find out my strategies for actually doing this?
Check it out here—you won’t be disappointed (coming soon).
And just so you know I actually did all this stuff, here’s some proof:
Photo Caption: The bronzed-Adonis pic was taken in the summer just weeks before I revealed to Sarah she was pregnant. And the hospital-heavyweight pic was taken one week after Poppy was born. My weight gain occurred over 7 months.
Pretty crazy, huh.
And I did all the other stuff too, promise.
Ok, so if I’m not crazy, and Sarah didn’t make me do this, what was going through my head?
To fully explain why I did this, I need to tell you a story.
So here goes… This is story of how and why, this whole thing got started.
How It Started
Sarah and I were driving back from the Sea-to-Sky gondola near Squamish and we had just found out Sarah was pregnant. Actually, I was the one who confirmed it.
I looked at the pregnancy test first, and shared the results with her, since Sarah couldn’t bring herself to open the box. So she asked me to.
Photo Caption: Where I revealed the pregnancy test results to Sarah.
Obviously I was nervous too, but how cool is it for the guy tell the women she’s pregnant?
So I opened the box and choked out:
“We’re going to have a baby.”
Sarah hardly believed me, and grabbed the stick.
Sarah confirmed the results and then all the things you think happened, happened: Joy, tears, fears, repeat.
OK, now fast forward to the drive home.
Little did I know Sarah was already living out the perils of pregnancy in her mind. She was dreading:
- Putting on weight.
- Her hormones going crazy.
- Watching her diet (because she’d be responsible for a human now).
- And the never ending discomfort of it all.
All pretty reasonable, right?
So to try and ease her fears, I naively blurted out that I could wear a fat-suit.
Yaaaa, I know—not the best response. Sarah scoffed and jokingly said I should gain the weight and then see how I feel.
And the rest is history.
But let me admit, I wasn’t really serious about it at first, and I had no idea it would turn into a full-blown social experiment. But I followed through with it and my life has never been the same.
And just in case you’re wondering, the rest of the pregnancy rules came about organically as we realized there was a lot more going on. We simply took stock of them and they arose and added the ones we saw fit.
Why Do It To Begin With?
If you’re not with me yet, then you’re probably against me.
Or you might just be shaking your head still dazed and confused about the whole situation. Well, to understand why I did this, you need to understand how big of a deal being pregnant is (I didn’t initially).
Being pregnant means:
- You take on sole responsibility for growing, birthing, and breastfeeding the baby.
- You are vulnerable—physically, emotionally, financially, and lifestyle- and identity-wise.
- Your life, body, and relationship will change forever.
And that’s a lot to deal with.
But don’t get me wrong. Being pregnant is beautiful, wonderful, and amazing all at the same time. But it’s also a really scary time. Moms-to-be take on a lot of responsibility and usually end up feeling super vulnerable, at least some of the time.
In other words I came to realize that:
Women’s fears about pregnancy run deep. Much deeper than I ever realized. They’re complex and intricate, snarled-up and emotionally charged. They’re real and imaginary all at the same time.
And that’s huge.
Just ask reddit. I did, and the response was wild (here’s my post 1 and post 2).
Moms-to-be worry about a lot:
- Miscarriage, stillborn, birth defects, and SIDS
- Being a bad mom (or otherwise disappointing themselves)
- Gaining weight and losing weight
- Pain, medical interventions, and disappointment during childbirth
- Their finances
- Losing their self-identity and hating their new lives
- Not loving the baby instantly
- Struggling with breastfeed
- Sex never being the same
- Postpartum depression
And that’s just a start.
OK, so there’s a lot to worry about. But that doesn’t mean you have to do a crazy experiment, right?
It’s exactly why I needed to do this social experiment.
Why I Did The Empathy Experiment
1. To Show My Commitment
Sarah deserved my full commitment and support during pregnancy. Because pregnancy is tough and I wanted to do more than just verbally reassure her.
I wanted to show her that she wasn’t alone. I wanted to show her tangible proof of my commitment. So for me, that meant doing something outside the box. That meant making her issues, our issues.
And that’s what I did.
I took on some of the same challenges so she’d have some physical proof of my commitment to her during pregnancy.
And no, Sarah didn’t force me to do this. Yes, she has her own insecurities like everyone, but she definitely never pressured me into it. I took this all on by choice.
2. To Cultivate Empathy
Because empathy beats out sympathy any day of the week. It seems to be a deeper emotion and way more likely to lead to positive action from me (and probably most other men).
As a man, it’s especially hard to empathize with a pregnant women because we’ll never be pregnant or experience pregnancy in the same way. So all we can hope to do is sympathize. And that’s a problem because sympathy is a precarious emotion. Think about it.
It can easily be misconstrued as pity or come across as condescending if imperfectly delivered. Ever rolled your eyes while saying something nice to your partner just to appease them? Like you really didn’t believe them but you just didn’t want to hear about it anymore?
We can do it without realizing it.
And given a long enough timeframe (ahem, 9 months) it's likely to crop up when men try and sympathize over pregnancy symptoms. Because let’s be honest, we're all human and bound to slip up. And I didn’t want to put that on Sarah (because I knew I would).
So taking on the pregnancy rules was my way of cultivating empathy and trying to avoid brushing her emotions off. Instead, they'd be mine too.
And it worked—I was a non-stop walking, talking pregnancy ambassador.
3. To Unify Our Team
Doing the experiment instantly fused our mindsets, aligned our day-to-day lifestyles, and gave us a common goal (that I was actually participating in and not just supporting from behind the scenes).
And that’s powerful, because it allowed us to share the mental burden of it all.
There’s so many extra things you need to think about when you’re pregnant:
- What should I eat and drink today that’s super healthy?
- Will I make time to exercise? Or can I sit on the couch without feeling guilty?
- God, I’m getting big. Does anyone else notice?
- Where’s the nearest bathroom?
- Why am I always so hungry.
- I just want to sleep. Without getting up to pee.
Thinking about all of that consumes a huge amount of mental energy. And it can be exacerbated if you feel alone.
So by agreeing to “live” the pregnancy experience with her, I became part of her team. And not just a cheerleader.
It meant that I couldn’t get lazy (because I was literally feeling experiencing some of the same symptoms) and that she could rely on me just a little bit more.
4. To Challenge Myself
I’m wild and stubborn.
So I’d be lying if I said I didn’t like crazy challenges. And that meant that the Empathy Experiment was right up my alley. Plus, it was a pretty novel idea and I’d never heard of anyone doing something like it. And that made me want to do it even more.
I also knew that pregnancy was very women-centric and I didn’t want to be left out. I didn’t want to be sidelined at the very beginning of the most important and biggest challenge Sarah and I ever faced together (equality in our relationship is very important) .
So for partial fear of being left out, and partially because this challenge was so unique, I decided to cozy up with all the pregnancy symptoms I could.
If you can’t beat em’, join em’, right?
5. To Inspire Social Change
It’s 2017—this isn’t mad men.
So let’s stop pretending that pregnancy is only women’s business. It’s not. But in most cases men leave a lot on the table for their pregnant spouse to deal with.
Women routinely single-handedly manage their entire pregnancy and postpartum care alone. We’re talking a ton of work and stress dealing with things like doctor’s appointments, food and vitamin intake, monitoring weight gain, making labour arrangements. And then dealing with everything that comes after the baby arrives: the healing process, breastfeeding, researching and buying baby gear, and postpartum depression.
So those are the top 5 reasons why I did the Empathy Experiment
I want to inspire men to become fathers and act like equally invested parents from the very beginning—from pregnancy onwards. Men can, and do play a huge role in a healthy pregnancy. But unfortunately, this mantra is not being adopted fast enough.
The Empathy Experiment became a way for me to learn about pregnancy, feminism, and gender equality. It brought me closer to something uniquely feminine and indirectly much closer to many other issues that women face everyday.
Pregnancy is fucking hard and I found that out the hard way.
I don’t regret doing it because the process taught me a lot. It taught me about pregnancy and gender equality. It helped me show my partner a new level of commitment (that she’d otherwise never see from me). And it will hopefully raise awareness and inspire others to think a little more deeply about their views and position in the world.
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